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Mundane. Tuesday, October 13 Many things had been happening lately. The raya outing with ex pri schoolmates was...okay. Though it wasn't planned properly ): After that, hang out with Shasha, Ilham & Ryanto at my house area till 6 in the morning. That was on Sunday. Monday, the plan was to go for interview but failed to wake up in the morning. Okay, don't wanna elaborate bout the fucked up day. Something happened & I broke down. Instead of studying for my last paper, I cried and talked to my friends. I had a big fight with Hizam. I let go of my ego & plead for him not to let go. I really did sound pathetic tho. I don't know how to put the reasons why I really need him in words. Its unexplainable. Eventho I could have just leave him and find another one to replace him, I don't want to. I never wanted someone to stay with me so badly.. It makes me wonder sometimes.. I just don't care what others have to say bout me or him.. Cuz what I know is that I never wanna let him go and no one is in position to say anything cuz they don't know what I'm going through. Tho I'm talking like I've been with him for years, this is just how I feel. And I don't need anyone to ask me again & again whats so special bout him. I love Hizam & I wanna grow old with him, no one else. I really need to change and stop going out with many guys. But I really don't know how or where to start. I need him to guide me but its just so hard. ): Today I screwed up my geog paper 2. I was extremely exhausted and slept after finishing the paper. Wait, I didn't even finish it. After 15 mins or so, I slept. I forced myself to wake up and finish it but I really can't. My eyes are really heavy. Yes, what the fuck. In the noon, the show started. That was the first time witnessing my darling's real anger. I never seen this side of her. Or have I? The cat fight went on for few minutes. Poor Ros. She missed the show. In the end, that girl apologize to every one of us whom she called whores. Now see? Everyone hates you. You're such a messed up girl. Messed with the wrong person. But honestly, I didn't really feel angry. -.- Wen Ling shows her ah lian side of her. Scary! haha! So now, here I am at home. sigh. I don't feel like doing anything at all. I'm still upset bout yesterday's incident. Its like still hanging. I really don't want him to let go of me ): ): |
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